User blog:Aphmau101/More about me

If you think my story was bad on the last blog than it only gets worst, so my parents started treating me the same as Lilly, but soon after i found out that they where having a divorce, they both had 50/50 costudy for Lilly and went back and forth every week, i was different tho, they both didnt want me i went back every month not cause they wanted me but cause they didnt want me, and that was the only thing they agreed with, Lilly noticed i was hurt she told them she'll run away if you both dont take costudy, so all they could handle is i spent a month at my moms and a month with my dad, but who evers turn it was the other was happy i was gone, so but them i only saw Lilly a week at most in a month. I stoped talking completely after awhile, i felt rejected, they didnt care, i told them a couple times they didnt change, and while all this is happening Lilly had faith to move the mountains, she told me stories of the bible every day she saw me, and watched aphmau, then 2012 comes, my younger brother passed away then his twin out of heart break, i should have told them i loved them every day, how much they meaned to me, i didnt and now its too late, i miss them. I believed with all my heart that someday i will just die and no one would care, i am just nothing, why doesnt any one love me, i wish every one would just disapare there would be no difference, but i soon asked God to forgive me and then he did, he always did, i feel so loved, the only one i neex to love me is him, i dont care if every one hates me i have three people sho love me, God Jesus and The Holy Spirit. I lost os much, then my oldest sister moved to AZ. Then my brother. I was heart broken, then Lilly died, i have a hard life but people have it harder, i feel for them, they need Jesus, everyone does, i am just glad i had such an awesone sister to tell me about Jesus. But before she died, i could'nt handle it anymore i tried to run away out in the rain, i got a cold, then so did she, i was the reason she died.